superstition

Posted in bad luck, my thoughts on April 11, 2010 by flowiet

are you superstitious?  i mean do you believe in your daily horoscope or your zodiac signs?  i used dwell on that stuff a lot!  i mean i believed in it so much that sometimes i think it scared me.

I believe that horoscope does indeed tell your personality.  Some traits are definitely imprinted on certain people due to their certain signs.  however, i think the person then molds themselves throughout their lives from their experiences.

I on the other hand believe in my zodiac… the Chinese beliefs of how fate is destined due to your past life and the choices u make or the choices that are available for you to make are due to the good or bad deeds that you’ve committed in your past life.  I believe that or is horrified by those fortune tellers that tell you every year how different your luck is due to some start that is sitting in your life zone.

it makes u think… er… if i don’t listen will i run into all those trouble that you’ve mentioned?

so during Cny this year i walked by those jade shops that sold the little pieces of jade made into the different animals of the zodiac.  I walked in to take a look and wondered if it would be needed?

i believe that only a person that believes that they need luck, or is feeling kinda lost or has nothing to emotionally depend on… would buy it in hopes that it would protect them, or change their luck or just make them feel better.

after standing there and listening to the sales lady go on and on.. i felt like i had to buy it from her.  not cuz i believed it, but i felt bad that i made her stand there for so long telling me everything and i had no intention of purchasing anything.  so i bought a necklace.

so i brought it home and my mom saw it lying on my bed.  she said.. “oh you’re going to wear that right?!”   i heard and thought about it.. and said.. “ah .. might as well.. ” so i put it on.. and for some reason i feel this “maybe i’ll be safe” feeling….

recently, i lost that piece of jade… it bothered me.  Cuz i felt like that since i bought it, things have gone well for me.  I was afraid that things would make a negative change… it bugged me that i couldn’t find it and it bugged me that I didn’t have it.  I had a really bad day on Saturday…and it bugged me that maybe it had an affect!

Well, to end the story… i went out today and bought myself a new piece of jade.  And i put it on.. and i was happy again!  i don’t know if its going to protect me, or if its bringing me luck.  I think what its doing is that its just giving me a peace… that if anything bad does go wrong… i tried to prevent it?

i don’t know.. just a thought

i thought i locked u up and threw away the key…

Posted in my thoughts on March 28, 2010 by flowiet

there are choices in life that you make, and during the time you made those choices you believed that they were right.  You believed that they would make you either a better person or make your life better.  Sometimes you’re wrong.  Sometimes those decisions are made due to the way you were feeling then, or due to your immaturity at that age, or the lack of wisdom to make those hard and complicated decisions. 

I made a decision once, once to leave something that till this day I still hold dearly to my heart.  i was blinded by the things that were in front of me and never stopped to think that “if i was so happy then, even when i claimed i wasn’t… why wouldn’t i be happy when he then awoke from his daze and was willing to give me everything in the world?” ….

its obviously too late to dwell on it now.. but lately i’ve been having nightmares…. this person walks into my dreams and talks to me.  he repeats his words and makes me remember those feelings that i once had.  those feeling that i locked so deep down in to my heart and threw away the key.  this person made such an impression that I think till the day i die… i would carry those feelings with me. i don’t know if the impression was made because it hurt so much to be with him then, or the fact that i made the decision to not return to him when he came back?

now so many years later i sit here writing this blog.. and trying to put a foot-stop at the end of it all… its like i’m going through the depression of the break up now…. i want you out of my heart… i don’t any pieces of you left behind… you are no longer mine and i have to move on without having to compare every single person that comes after you……

i thought i locked u away …. and threw away the key… but it turns out that i locked you away thinking that i could hold you forever…. and now its turning back to haunt me.

Excerpt from SCMP: Pope overlooked child abuse, files show

Posted in Uncategorized on March 26, 2010 by flowiet

Pope overlooked child abuse, files show

Pontiff among Vatican officials who failed to act after priest admitted molesting boys

UNITED STATES
The New York Times
Mar 26, 2010

Top Vatican officials – including the future Pope Benedict – did not defrock a priest who molested up to 200 deaf boys, according to files unearthed as part of a lawsuit.

The internal correspondence from bishops in Wisconsin directly to then cardinal Joseph Ratzinger, the current pontiff, shows that while church officials tussled over whether the priest should be dismissed, their highest priority was protecting the church from scandal.

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The documents emerged with the Pope facing other accusations that he and direct subordinates often did not alert civilian authorities or discipline priests involved in sexual abuse when he served as an archbishop in Germany and as the Vatican’s chief doctrinal enforcer.

In the wake of the latest revelations, four American victims of clergy sexual abuse say they were detained and questioned by Italian police in Rome after protesting at the Vatican.

Barbara Blaine, one of the victims, said officers told them a judge would decide if they would be charged. The four leaders of the US-based Survivor Network of those Abused by Priests demanded that the Pope open up files on paedophile Catholic clerics and immediately defrock all “predator priests”.

The Wisconsin case involved the Reverend Lawrence Murphy, who worked at a renowned school for deaf children from 1950 to 1974. It is one of thousands of cases forwarded over decades by bishops to the Congregation for the Doctrine of the Faith, the Vatican office that decides whether accused priests should be defrocked, led from 1981 to 2005 by Ratzinger.

In 1996, Ratzinger failed to respond to two letters about the case from Rembert Weakland, Milwaukee’s archbishop at the time.

After eight months, the second in command at the doctrinal office – then cardinal Tarcisio Bertone, now the Vatican’s secretary of state – instructed the Wisconsin bishops to begin a secret canonical trial that could lead to Murphy’s dismissal. But he halted the process after Murphy wrote to Ratzinger protesting that he had repented and was in poor health.

“I simply want to live out the time that I have left in the dignity of my priesthood,” Murphy wrote to Ratzinger. “I ask your kind assistance in this matter.” The files contain no response from Ratzinger.

The New York Times obtained the documents, which the church fought to keep secret, from Jeff Anderson and Mike Finnegan, lawyers for five men who have brought four lawsuits against the Archdiocese of Milwaukee. The documents include letters between bishops and the Vatican, victims’ affidavits, the notes of an expert on sexual disorders who interviewed Murphy and minutes of a final meeting at the Vatican.

Murphy not only was never tried or disciplined by the church’s justice system, but also got a pass from the police and prosecutors, according to the documents and interviews with victims. Three successive archbishops in Wisconsin were told of Murphy sexually abusing children, the documents show, but never reported it to criminal or civil authorities.

Instead of being disciplined, Milwaukee’s then archbishop William Cousins moved Murphy to the Diocese of Superior in northern Wisconsin in 1974, where he spent his last 24 years working freely with children. He died in 1998, still a priest.

Even as the Pope in a recent letter to Irish Catholics emphasised the need to co-operate with civil justice in abuse cases, the correspondence seems to indicate that the Vatican’s insistence on secrecy has often impeded such co-operation.

The Vatican spokesman, the Reverend Federico Lombardi, provided a statement saying Murphy had violated “particularly vulnerable” children and the law, and that it was a “tragic case”. But he said the Vatican was not forwarded the case until 1996, years after civil officials had investigated.

Lombardi said that in the late 1990s, the morals watchdog suggested the Milwaukee archbishop take action by “restricting Father Murphy’s public ministry and requiring that Father Murphy accept full responsibility for the gravity of his acts”.

It was delegated to the archbishop “in light of the facts that Father Murphy was elderly and in very poor health, and that he was living in seclusion and no allegations of abuse had been reported in over 20 years”.

He did not address why church officials never reported the abuse to civil authorities in this case. As to why Murphy was never defrocked, he said: “The code of Canon Law does not envision automatic penalties.”

To many, Murphy appeared to be a saint: a hearing man gifted at communicating in American sign language and an effective fund-raiser for deaf causes. He started as a teacher at St John’s School for the Deaf in St Francis in 1950 and was promoted to run it in 1963, even though students disclosed to church officials in the 1950s that he was a predator.

Arthur Budzinski said he was first molested when he went to Murphy for confession when he was about 12, in 1960. “He was so friendly, and so nice and understanding. I knew he was wrong, but I couldn’t really believe it.” Budzinski and other deaf former students spent more than 30 years trying to raise the alarm.

In 1993, with complaints about Murphy landing on his desk, Weakland hired a social worker to evaluate him. After four days, the social worker said Murphy admitted his acts, had probably molested about 200 boys and felt no remorse.

Additional reporting by Associated Press, Agence France-Presse

must have laptop…

Posted in Uncategorized on March 9, 2010 by flowiet

so i woke up on time today to go to school at 9am.  About half way there i realized why my backpack was so light… i had forgotten to pack my laptop!!!!  I contemplated what I would be doing during lecture with no laptop… (little bubble cloud above my head with scenario…) i would be dreading the whole lecture with hopes that I can leave and go home.. or i would sit there during O&A and not be able to do anything in class cuz there’s is no laptop… can’t play facebook, can’t feed my restaurant employees in Restaurant city and CAN’T start up my planes in airplane manager!  Conclusion:  I TURNED AROUND AND WENT HOME!

upon arriving at home…. I am still here!  Talking to my fellow classmates whom are still in class doing the exact same thing i’m doing… (some are actually working on their opinion)…. facebook… msn…. just randomly blogging or surfing the net.. watching last nights tvb shows or grey’s anatomy or something….

so… SGS it is at 2:30.. cuz 1:30 class is no longer continuing for some odd reason?!  Now.. the question is.. why did i wake up at 7:30am?  Oh… to drive up to Sheng Shui and then come back to play on the computer… Gosh !  I’m so sleepy!  NAP TIME!

transferring blogs and life update

Posted in Uncategorized on March 4, 2010 by flowiet

transferring my blog from blogger to wordpress is not too too hard except I now want to separate my photography posts from my random crazy thoughts!  i look at my journal and i see chaos!  I look at my photography blog.. its more .. organized?!

First off! – fluffy is recovering well cuz she’s been jumping around and running around like it never happened!  Makes me so happy to see her jump off the couch and run towards me.

Second – had a wonderful birthday with friends!  this year I finally feel like i belong here in HK with my friends and family.  Starting to finally feel like home!

Third – having the greatest trouble restraining myself from purchasing photography related products!!!!

Fourth – yoga is so refreshing!!!!

Fifth – school is torture!!!!

that’s about the update for now!

again.. courtesy of Yahoo… 有一個人成日都話俾我聽佢唔識。。。

Posted in Uncategorized on February 8, 2010 by flowiet

有一個人成日都同我講。。。 “我想知D咩呀。。 。有想睇D咩呀。。。” 然後我話。。。“上網就有架啦!” 佢會答我。。 “我唔識呀。。。我唔知邊到搵。。。你搵啦。。。” 我問過他。。 “點解自己唔開部電腦搵下。。。” 佢都係答。。。 “我唔知係邊到搵呀!”

我想。。“有冇問提呀?你有電腦。。。 唔識搵答案?yahoo 又得。。。google 又得! 咁多search engine 你唔用。。你黎問我?!”

電視都有教啦! 如過要搵關預 government 0的 野就一係你打電話等佢聽。。。一係你自己走係排隊等佢。。。一係你上網自己搵!!!! 救命呀!!! 我爸都60啦!佢搵野快過我! 所以我知同年齡冇關! 點解有人係唔識自己動手動腳做野架?!這類人。。。會有出人頭地的一天嗎?定佢地永遠只係得過車”che”過呢?應該會同下面個卡通一樣!!!

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Lomography

Posted in Uncategorized on February 6, 2010 by flowiet

Recently purchased the Diana F+ Lomography Camera. I’ve been wanting this for a while… every time i walk into Page One or Logon I go straight for the camera section where they have all these lomo cams sitting there calling my name! Finally i gave in to the urges and bought the damn thing! Its quite interesting to actually hold the the Diana in my hand… its feels so plastic! haha but its so cute!

So after going through the whole box full of accessories and books, manuals, and playing with the different lenses i finally decided that I would probably have to buy a film scanner if not it would definitely cost me in the long run to print out every single picture I take with the camera. I did have one before and I dug it up just now to find out that Epson no longer supports the Epson 1650. So i’m stuck looking for a new one. and then I’ll be able to buy the film and go crazy.. get it processed and not developed. I already have 3 ink jet canons that print beautiful pictures! so I can then pick out what I like!

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